I Tried Too Hard And She Tore My Feelings Like I Had None...

Soooo today, I have decided that I will not be mean to anyone anymore.

Everyone has feelings, and most of us knows how it feels to be picked on, to lose a friend, to be laughed at, to be called ugly, or fat, and so on. I know I know how it feels with all of those things.

I know am not the prettiest girl ever or the smartest girl ever, and I'm not one of those chicks that are like "Haha I'm gonna post my status as 'I'm fat.' or 'I'm so ugly.' just so I can get attention and be called pretty! Haha!"

No. That''s called being an attention whore. Hahaha. Time for confessions. Honestly, I don't think I am pretty at all, and I'm 'thin' but apparently I'm not 'thin' enough for myself.

All those people who go on formspring, and sit there and make anonymous comments about how ugly I am (mostly on my exboyfriend's), You know, it really hurts me and kills my self-esteem. Confession time- . I always feel like like I'm not good enough. Ya' know? Bleh. Hm. I try and I attempt, to get myself through all the negative comments with - "Haters gonna hate, and those who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter." But sometimes, that's just not good enough.

This post has been all over the place.

But I'm gonna be considerate of other's feeling and just try my best to boost their self confidence even if nobody's even thinking to boost mine. The most weak people, are the ones who seem strong. And that's most definitely me.

I'm On The Frontline, Don't Worry I'll Be Fine. The Story's Just Beginning.♥

In todays world, you don't know who to trust. I mean, who really deserves it?

All anybody really does is make you believe you can fully trust you,

then just straight up shatter your trust, like it was a flimsy piece of glass that does not matter at all.

What is wrong with this?

Yezzir, a lot. And there's nothing to do to change it.

Choose carefully who you trust in and be willing to risk it all.

Gah, I feel like I'm blabbing but whatever.

'Tis all I wanted to say [:

---Kaylaaa.

WTF!?

Holy crap!

On the bus today this random guy plops down on my seat and 

is all like "What is youuuurrrr namee?"

Shoot, that right thurrr freaked me out.

So I told him my name and he then says

"Myyyy name is Matthewww"

or something like that, I couldn't understand him.

Then he goes on and on and on andddd onnnnnnn about how the teachers think he cheats

because he's just soooo friggin smart!

Mmm, smh.

Then he asks me why the leaves on trees are green.

-_- COME ON! 

I say I don't know and then he starts blabbing about how if everyone just eats plants and 

water, then people would have more energy and junk.

I'm sitting there, day dreaming, nodding and smiling

like absolutely nothing friggin WEIRD is going on.

And right before his stop he goes, "I got a lot off my chest. You're a good listener.

You should be a therapist."

Wtf. Go away.

THEN SAYS "You should try to be more social, it might help you. But it can also hurt you."

My EXACT thoughts: Wow, my friends would get a kick out of hearing that.

But after the words sunk in, all I thought was WHAT THE FRICK.

The End.

Wtf.

---Kaylaaa.

I'm Thinking To Myself That I've Done Something Wrong

Going down the wrong path.

Not Listening.

Unaware.

Fake happiness

Masking the hopelessness.

Falling away.

Not able to find a way back.

What's done is done,

And there is no way to change it.

Save the sorrow for someone who will believe it.

---Kaylaaa. 

Open Your Eyes And See That Life Is Beautiful.

I just don't know anymore. I feel I should be happy but nothing ever makes me happy. Whenever I'm alone all I want to do is cry. I know I have to keep my head up high, ignore

all the negative effects of people in my life, *cough cough*,

and continue to laugh and smile and to live life to the fullest.

Life is a gift, that should not ever be wasted,

and it's best to have the best time ever

while you still have the chance. Because when you really open your eyes for the first time, it could be too late.

---Kaylaaa.